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Sailor Brinkley Cook admits she's felt 'disgusted' with her body

by Elyse Quintanilla (2020-06-06)


Sailor Brinkley Cook has hit out at GMA over an interview about her eating disorder struggles, branding the segment 'tone deaf' and accusing the show of 'cutting 95 per cent of what I said' to create a 'click bait' piece. 

logo.pngThe 21-year-old Sports Illustrated Swimsuit model, who is the daughter of fellow model Christie Brinkley, appeared on the morning show just days after posting an impassioned social media rant against Photoshop, admitting that she has cried over cellulite and other 'imperfections' but is determined to embrace her body as it is. 

During the Good Morning America segment on Friday, Sailor reflected on the eating disorder she struggled with in high school, which left her feeling unworthy and compelled her to work out five times a day.






Speaking out: Sailor Brinkley Cook spoke candidly today about times she has felt 'disgusted' with how her body looks







'I have this awful feeling that if I'm not skinny, I'm not worth being celebrated and I'm not worth being praised,' she said

















Hungry: She said that she had an eating disorder in which she cut calories and would work out five times a day


Sailor said she that she carried some extra pounds when she was younger, which made her the target of teasing. 

'I grew up a little bit overweight and I felt the weight of my overweightness on me constantly from people teasing me and people looking at me differently,' she said.

'I was looking up at all these major figures in modeling that are size double zero and they've got these thin legs and these tiny waists,' she went on.

'I was seeing them being so celebrated by everyone everywhere and being wanted by all the boys and all that greatness that comes around being this tiny supermodel. And I wanted that.'

She certainly felt even more pressure because of comparisons to her mother, one of the most famous supermodels in history. 

So in high school, she started dieting and working out five times a day — but most people had no idea what she was going through.

When she was 14, a time she says was at the 'pinnacle of her eating disorder,' she was interviewed on GMA — and correspondent Deborah Roberts said she seemed to be 'brimming with confidence' at the time.






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'I grew up a little bit overweight and I felt the weight of my overweightness on me constantly from people teasing me and people looking at me differently,' she said 







Flashback: Comparisons to her famous mother, Christie Brinkley, didn't help (pictured in 2009)







Tiny thing: She recalled that even during this interview seven years ago, she was struggling with body image issues


Even her mom was unaware of just about bad it was. 

'My mom didn't fully know the pain that I was going through when I was at my worst,' she said.

Though she appears to be in a better place, Sailor — who competed on Dancing with the Stars, taking her mom's place after she suffered an injury in rehearsals — still struggles.

'I have this awful feeling that if I'm not skinny, I'm not worth being celebrated and I'm not worth being praised,' she said. 

'I've just been having these moments and looking into the mirror and being disgusted with myself for the tiniest things, like a roll on my stomach, a little pooch on the bottom of my stomach,' she went on.

While Sailor spoke candidly about her personal struggles, though, she hoped that the story would be presented in a more 'positive light' — and took to Instagram after the GMA segment aired to complain that she was disappointed with how it turned out, and insisted that she never intended to 'throw a pity party.'

'I understand that "comparisons to model mom" and "eating disorder struggles" are great taglines for click bait on news outlets. But when I agreed to do this interview, I was under the impression that it would be in a positive light and would be inspirational. 






Not happy: Sailor took to Instagram after the GMA segment aired to complain that she was disappointed with it, and insisted that she never intended to 'throw a pity party'


'I ONLY agreed to do it during this awful time in American because I thought it would be a small beacon of positivity for people who have dealt with the same things as me,' she went on.

'I did NOT want to throw a pity party for myself. I did NOT want the interview to be highlighting the dark times. 95% of what I said during the interview got cut. Including thank yous to health care workers & essential workers, as well as acknowledging how awful and heartbreaking this time is for so many.

'I think the interview came off as extremely tone deaf. There is so much going on in this world, between POC being murdered by police. To COVID-19 taking beautiful souls away from this Earth too early.

'I want to sincerely apologize for the tone deafness of this interview. If I were in control of the editing it would've been shown in a very different light and would've highlighted the inspirational things I said rather than the explanation of what I went through as a 15-year-old.

'Again, I did NOT want this interview to become me whining about what I've been through. This is NOW how I believed it would be swung.

'Through this interview I wanted to be a voice for people who are facing their mental illnesses and body image issues head-on right now in isolation, and tell those people how strong each and every one of them are.

'Also I wanted to use my experiences with body image issues to let people who might relate to my story know that they are beautiful and worthy of living a happy life unburdened by the negative thoughts about themselves. 














'I ONLY agreed to do it during this awful time in American because I thought it would be a small beacon of positivity for people who have dealt with the same things as me,' she said


'The exact words I said at the end of the interview that I wish didn't get cut off was: 

'"We have to collectively learn to praise and CELEBRATE ourselves more often, because life passes by so quickly and it's a shame to spend so much of it worrying that you aren't good enough. Because as long as you're here on Earth and you have a body to love and a voice to be heard YOU ARE GOOD ENOUGH and deserve happiness."

'Again, I'm just as upset as anyone else would be watching that story during this time. I'm honestly pretty heartbroken that when I thought, finally an interview I did would be something that would help someone going through similar things as me, it just ended up being a "child of celebrity goes through struggles" interview.

'I wish they used the other 95% of what I said that I could've maybe actually helped someone out there. 

'But the media is the media and they're going to swing things in the way that will be the most controversial and will get the most clicks.

'Truly, the tone was out of my control. And I apologize for that.'




Sailor Brinkley-Cook is opening up about her struggle with body image issues and "eating disorder tendencies." @DebRobertsABC has her story. website pic.twitter.com/zhbMg39QzR

— Good Morning America (@GMA) May 29, 2020







Body image: Last weekend, Sailor posted a rant about Photoshop, admitting that she has cried over her cellulite and fat 









Upset: 'I go on Instagram and scroll through photos of girls that look "perfect" ... and I compare myself'


Sailor was more in control on Sunday when she posted a lengthy message about body image on Instagram. 

'I'm so f**king sick and tired of the Photoshop,' she wrote. 

'I've been so down on myself recently. Crying about my cellulite, letting the fat on my body ruin my day, getting mad that I'm not as skinny as I once was. The body dysmorphia and left over eating disorder tendencies have been coming in strong.' 

Sailor went on to explain that her body changes each month and she's learning to accept that as she has no control over it. 

As I come into myself as a young woman, my body shifts and changes by the month, the "control" I felt I once had over it has been completely stripped away from me. Hormones, emotions, growing pains.

'I go on Instagram and scroll through photos of girls that look "perfect"... shiny skin with not a bump to be seen, tiny little waist and thighs that look like chopsticks. And I compare myself, as if how someone on an app on my phone looks should directly correlate to how I feel about my body?

'What I've learned is that I run every day. I go to the gym 6 times a week. I fuel my body with beautiful food. I am so f**king LUCKY to have two legs and a healthy body that takes me through life.






Being brave: Sailor shared various unfilted photos of herself on the platform for fans 







Lucky: 'What I've learned is that I run every day. I go to the gym 6 times a week. I fuel my body with beautiful food. I am so f**king LUCKY to have two legs and a healthy body that takes me through life' 

















Just like mama! Sailor is the model daughter of Christie Brinkley and has also appeared in Sports Illustrated Swim 














'I'm so tired of thinking anything that makes up ME is something to be ashamed of. So as most 21st century girls would do, I'm putting this out there on Instagram. Declaring that I have cellulite, and a stomach that doesn't always look "pleasant" (whatever the f**k that means) and I am 100% imperfect human. And I'm proud as hell of my body!;

She concluded: 'If you're out there hating on yourself, stop!! Appreciate yourself. You're body is so magical. That's all. Have a nice day.' 

The DWTS contestant has previously opened up about her struggles with eating disorders over the years. 

'I've dealt with insecurity and body image issues my entire life,' she told Daily Mail in 2018. 'Everyone sees flaws when they look in the mirror. We all look for imperfections. I was a chubby kid.

'I got teased, bullied and bad-mouthed. My friends were petite and could eat whatever they wanted. I wasn't. I hated having a roll around my tummy,' she recalled.

'That pushed me down emotionally and as I grew up, it got worse. I had a deep hatred for what I looked like.






Maintains her health and fitness: Sailor revealed on Sunday that she works out twice a day on most days and eats clean 







Sharing her truth: She has spoken out before about her eating disorders


'I wouldn't go to swimming pool parties because of my stomach. I'd not go to friends' houses for dinner because I didn't want to eat. It all related to how I looked.'

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'I'm pretty candid about the fact that I dealt with a couple of eating disorders. I understand feeling out of control and obsessing over how you look, [because] growing up as a young girl is not the easiest task!' she told the publication.  

'I want to be the type of person others can relate to and think, "Hey that girl eats pasta and isn't crazy thin, but she's healthy and happy,"' she explained.

In 2016, she also spoke about of damage that comparisons to her mother. 

Christie had proudly showed of photos of herself and her daughter as Sailor moved to New York City for college, attracting the attention of several media outlets, including DailyMail.com.

However, some article commenters began bashing the young blonde, saying she 'is not a model,' is 'average looking at best,' and is 'a pretty girl but no where near what her mother was [sic].'






Twinning! in 2016, Christie shared this photo with Sailor — which inspired some hurtful replies

















Cruel: Sailor responded that it 'doesn't feel great' to have people tell her she isn't as pretty as her mom, adding that she doesn't understand why strangers would want to make her feel bad







Just tryin' to get by: Appealing to the others' sympathy, she asked people to stop aiming to hurt her for just trying to find what makes her happy


Hurt, Sailor took to Instagram to stand up for herself, firing off an impassioned message that refused to let these nasty strangers off the hook.

First, she noted that she usually doesn't read comments sections, and especially tries not to take them to heart. This time, though, she is 'so fed up.'

Including a screengrab of some of the meaner words aimed at her, she wrote: 'First of all — everyone needs to stop putting me and my siblings and me and my mother in competition. I believe comparison will kill you. 

'Comparison to others is toxic and unhealthy... As long as I am happy healthy and kind to others why should i care if i am not as 'pretty' as someone else ? Let alone not as "pretty" as my own blood relatives? 

'The subject i have been meaning to touch on publicly for years — stop. comparing. me. to. my. mother. Believe it or not I am my own person with my own beliefs and own thoughts and my own face! Eyes smile teeth forehead! All mine! The whole shabang! 

'Yes I am so fortunate that my mother is my mother.. And she will always be an inspiration to me... But being constantly compared to her 50+ years of success at only 18 years old? And being told I could never amount to what she was and what she looks like? Doesn't feel great. 

'I just will never understand these people who WANT to make me feel badly, who WANT to tell an 18 year old girl she cant follow her dreams because if she does she WONT BE AS GOOD AS HER MOM WAS.

'I'm just a person figuring out what i want to do and what makes me happy. Leave me alone,' she went on, adding that she wishes people would 'get off their computers', live their lives, and 'STOP making an 18 year old girl feel constantly inferior and hurt. [sic].'  



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